And So It Begins – Again

The noise begins, my heart lurches and my summer harmony turns on its ear. It will take who knows how many solitary forest walks to sort this one out and hold on to my peace of mind. The humans are out in force to destroy my landscape.

We’ve lived in this house for 6 years now. and we have been lucky to have a large vacant property behind us. Large trees and brush have provided coverage and habitat for wildlife and from my backyard I watch the birds doing their thing, attracted by the berries of the mountain ash and the early flowering salmonberries. One day I walked over there to trim back a bramble bush that was overtaking our fence and inadvertently disturbed a family of deer taking a nap in the brush cover.

I always knew I was living on borrowed time. And borrowed landscape.

The Japanese have an expression for it. Shakkei, borrowed scenery. The art of incorporating what lies beyond, into the garden. In our case, our borrowed scenery was the trees and that is part of the source of the upset. Those trees seemed part of the garden view, even though a fence separates the properties.

Now the property has changed hands and the new owners are getting ready to start construction on what is no doubt their dream home. The bulldozers, backhoes and other heavy machinery have been on the lot cutting down the huge cedars that used to be part of what remains of the forest at the end of the road to make way for the new house. The mountain ash that backs the corner of our property and provides a stopping off point and food for hundreds of songbirds that I enjoy watching daily was yanked out of the ground by the machine in a matter of seconds and dumped on the heap. I cry.

Unlike many in this neighbourhood that completely clearcut the lots for new builds, due to a lack of imagination and a desire no doubt to build cheaper and easier, these people have left a few trees behind and for those crumbs I have to be grateful. A bit of my borrowed landscape remains. But the droning and clashing I listen to now from the machines foretells the noise and upset ahead for the summer to come. I fear for my garden refuge where I live outdoors all day and evening too in summertime. I’m not counting on that for this year.

It’s all far too much deja vu. Six years ago, the day we moved into this house after returning to Canada for good after our time in Asia, our new next door neighbour on the other side, a builder and developer, came over to meet us over the fence and informed us that that wonderful lush, park-like acre and a half property next door was about to be razed and scraped and clear cut to create a bare, level stretch of dirt to build 3 houses on. It was a hard time living through all that and it took a very long time to get over it, if indeed I ever have.

I think about what’s going on in this one little neighbourhood as a micro version of what’s happening everywhere, as humans continue to decimate the natural spaces to fuel the beast of supporting too many people on this planet. Some say that we (humans) are “destroying the planet” but that’s not really accurate. Planet Earth will eventually transform into something unrecognizable, as it has many times before. It’s the humans and other life species that will be long gone. We’re not destroying the planet, we’re destroying ourselves.

Meanwhile I daydream about living in a garden where I can neither see nor hear any neighbours. In these suburban gardens we delude ourselves into thinking we have privacy because of all the fences and hedges we put up between us. But we’re still plenty close enough to hear and see what’s on the other side of the fence. Much too close.

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Waiting Out Winter

February Snow – Front Yard QBBC

Sitting at my desk in front of the large north facing window, I’ve been watching the snow melt. Now you may think this is as exciting as watching paint dry, which indeed  is something I’m also doing, here in The Bunkie Studio. Except in this case, the dripping water off the eaves IS exciting as (hopefully) it heralds The End.

Weather is the big topic of conversation between strangers and acquaintances and it seems to be the case no matter where you are. As if the changing nature of Planet Earth is such a big surprise, although as a chit chat ice breaker perhaps it’s as good as any. For the past few months it’s been a big one here, on coastal Vancouver Island, as Mother Nature has knocked this smug, former Ontarian right flat on her self-righteous behind.

For 5 years now I’ve been waxing rapturously about how wonderful our mild coastal winters are. “No snow”, I said, “At least none that sticks around for more than a day or two”. “Set up the heater in The GreenHouse before leaving on a trip to New Zealand in December? Nonsense, it never goes below zero in December.” Famous last words (see Return to a F*#k&g Winter Wonderland for that particular epic fail).

Since then we have endured long periods of deep freeze, lots of snowfalls, including the last bunch of storms that dumped Ontario-worthy snow on us, knocking down trees in the neighbours’ yards and canceling pilates. Serious stuff.

A visit to the top of the Englishman River Falls was worth the long walk in on the closed park road to find a stunning sight of ice and water…

Top of the Falls

 

The Road at the End of the Street

I walk every day, no matter what the weather, and walking (trudging) around the ‘hood these days of winter was to view a beautiful and unusual sight. I’m looking up a lot, and to a casual observer it may seem that this is just another gal with her head in the clouds. What I’m really doing, is scanning the tops of these huge trees for action, which most of the time, I find. A pair of canoodling ravens, eagle couples (saw more than half a dozen at the beach yesterday), a heron sitting on top of a cedar several blocks inland from the beach, a hawk which is a new sighting for me, and last week, trumpeter swans flew over the house two days in a row, honking like crazy, presumably on their way back to their winter digs at the estuary. Or perhaps leaving for wherever they live in summer. Early arriving song birds found refuge under the low branches of trees that had shaded the ground from the snow.

But then one day last week, the temperature rose 10 degrees in a matter of hours and  the rains came and there was a new sight and sound of bulging creeks and rivers madly rushing to the sea. Soon all will be forgotten and forgiven and the new topic of conversation will be…

Floods.

As the snow retreated under higher temperatures and cleansing rainfall, it revealed the little iris reticulata and other early bulbs  already poking up through the earth and the dozen pots of daffodils I plant every year for the patio were getting going. Early flowering and heavily scented shrubs like the sarcococca are, well, flowering early. The GreenHouse is up and running, pots of surviving fuchsias, moved up to the top benches are leafing out, and  daffodils I brought in to keep them company are flowering.

My inclination nowadays is to seek out and pay a lot of attention to the natural world, and the more I look the more I see, in my daily excursions. It is a way to find solace and joy at a time when I struggle to find a way to live in a world where the actions of humans fill me with such despair. The words of New Zealand landscape photographer and conservationist Craig Potton resonate…

“I think that if you love the earth with a passion then you release some of your sadness.”

The poet Mary Oliver, whose work is a constant companion for me these days, would agree. I too believe it to be true. If you choose to make it so.

 

Photo: craigpottongallery.co.nz

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The End of the Endless

I thought it would never end. The sheer scope of the project weighed me down for months, the procrastination was truly epic but finally I found the will to move in and get it done.

Working almost daily for 50 hours over 3 weeks on top of a year of frustration – that’s what it took to finish the ever-looming project of transferring my existing 18,000 photos to the new photo system, and in the process learning how to use it.

It was a huge mechanical grind, but I found some good podcasts to keep me entertained, rolled up the sleeves and got at it. Finally. Manual labour, I called it – re-sorting, re-filing, re-looking, re-culling and re-editing.

Now that it’s done I feel that immense weight of unresolved issues leaving my body. The effort was all worth it in the end. No longer stalled, now I can move on to the creative.

Among the many images I looked at were a gazillion of the garden over the past years we’ve been here. The transformation was extreme, starting from a bare patch of yard, and now that things are lush and (over) growing I thought it would be fun to pull out past images to see the changes. Before and after.

Now that it’s summer again, I’m back outside enjoying all this, looking at clouds, watching bees, butterflies and hummingbirds who hang out in this jungle, noticing every daily change, celebrating every new bloomer, come back for another season’s extravagant show. Even the neighbour’s cat likes it here, often settling in for a nap under the bushes – this after his daily dose of getting high on the catnip we’ve thoughtfully planted.

I’m not the only one lying around on a garden lounge chair, dozing and enjoying – got to slip in at least one cute cat picture. Dennis…

Dennis